I’m so proud of myself… I was able to turn scummy dark green water clear… Of course I read directions on everything but I still did it! Now that the water is clear I can see things swimming in the water that shouldn’t be there. Like some little foot ball shaped things with little flippers swimming too fast for me to catch them with the net…. There sort of transparent looking and the flippers are like fish fins… I have no idea what they are…I thought the chemicals would have killed them…But to my surprise NO! I thought they might have been tad poles…. But they look nothing like that once I got up close enough to see them. Maybe I SHOULD have drained all the water out and started over…. I will not swim with them… I’m positive their not baby dolphins.

I called the daughters cell phone number and it was shut off… I got a letter in the mail with my grand daughter’s birth certificate and social security card. There wasn’t a letter of endearment… only one stating that I had her permission to take her to the doctor and an out of date shot record. I looked down at Bonnie and thought damn…. You got a raw deal girl… It looks like you’re stuck with me. And believe me, that’s not saying much… She calls me Nanny now… I sort of hate that name but what can I say? I repeat “Nana” over and over to her but she says Nanny… We play the piano together and she sings right along with me… Her pretend typing looks like piano playing so I started teaching her a few things… She’s not that great but I have high hopes for her…. I got her all the Disney cartoons and we play a lot in the sprinklers…I gave her a hair cut so that it will all grow even… and we read stories at night after she takes a bath. To tell you the truth…. I’m not really into all this. I liked my life before, when I just did whatever I wanted too around here. I know that sounds selfish… It even does to me and I’m ashamed for having said it… It’s strange now even when the husband and I go shopping… People look at us then look at her…. I can see the expression of confusion on their faces because of the differences in us and her. One lady asked if the husband and I had adopted from some third world country…My dad said she looked like a kid from India… My brother quickly said No she doesn’t!… She looks like a Mexican…. I’m not use to those kinds of looks and comments… The times are a changing… and I don’t know if I like it. 16 years is a long time for a 40 year old… My feeling young days might be over and all those vacations I planned too those tropical places will be long forgotten. I saw that, 40 year old Brook Shields just had a baby…. what was she thinking? No really… if someone knows tell me because this is almost over whelming me….I’m not ashamed of my grand daughter in any way! Matter of fact I love her more than the daughter. I just don’t think I’m the best choice to be her mom… I just wanted to be her Nana. I guess we don’t always get what we want.

My dog Eddie Earl snagged his ear on a treble hook… It went all the way threw and poked out the other side and he stretched the hole a bit pulling his head while I was trying to get it out… I ended up having to cut the barb off and it came out easy… I was going to stick an ear ring in it but he ran off to fast. The husband told me to stop trying to make him a sissy. Speaking of dogs… I think my neighbor has Buster! He has a pack of beagles in his back yard and I think I can almost make my dog out through the foliage with my binoculars. No I’m not spying on him! I’m looking in his back yard! I can swear I heard my dog’s special bark coming from that way! Ok maybe not… but he needs to clean up his back yard so I can see better. Now to my chickens…. I ran out of hen scratch so I opened up the doors and let them all out. Two of my roosters had the balls to run away. I haven’t seen them in a few days… My rhoad Island red chickens stayed around eating up all the bugs until I could go get feed… There mean now, let me tell you……For know reason they chase my little dogs and try to peck them and pinch them on the back…All accept, you know who…. The killer his self… Private June bug… Who, by the way got a tick in his ear and acted like a bitch when I pulled it out with the tweezers. So did Dirt Diggler… I guess those cheep collars aren’t working.

The daughter called…. I asked her if something was the matter because she sounded funny…. She hung up on me…. I sat there for a moment wondering if I should call back.. I decided I would but she had turned her phone off…I’m not uncaring!

Esther Phillips:
No head stone on my grave
Just out of reach
Double crossing blues

All Right Now

Oh woh wohooh, ow
There she stood in the street
Smiling from her head to her feet
I said: "Hey, what is this now baby"
Maybe, maybe she's in need of a kiss
I said: "Hey, what's your name, baby
Maybe we can see things the same
Now don't you wait or hesitate
Let's move before they raise the parking rate", ow
All right now, baby it'sa all right now
All right now, baby it's a all right now, oh my wow
Let me tell you now, uh,
I took her home to my place
Watching every move on her face
She said: "Look, what's your game, baby
Are you tryin' to put in shame"
I said: "Slow, don't go so fast
Don't you think that love can last"
She said: "Love, Lord above, eh
Now you're tryin' to trick me in love", ow
All right now, baby it'sa all right now
All right now, baby it's a all right now, oh my I said
Ooh
Yeh
come on come up
Let me tell ya what is about now
Right now
Took her home yeh to my place
Watching every move on her face
She said: "Look, uh what's your name, baby
Are you tryin' t`put me in shame"
I said: "Slow, don't go so fast
Don't you think that love can last"
She said: "Love, Lord above,
Now you're tryin' to trick me in love", ow
All right now, baby it'sa all right now yeh
All right now, baby it's a all right now,
All right now, baby it's a all right (now), yeah
All right now (baby it's all right now) baby baby baby, it's all right
All (right now), yeh
It's all right, it's all right, it's all right, yeah,
All right now, baby it'sa all right now
Yeah, we're so happy together, ow
(Baby Baby Baby it's all right
It's all right, now yeah alright

Free:

Baby let me hold your hand
Until I make you understand
Ohh, baby, baby let me hold your hand
I really believe, everything will sure be grand

Baby I want you by my side
Our love we could never hide
Ohh, baby, baby I want you by my side
Well you know pretty baby, our love we would never hide



Baby I'll buy you a diamond ring
Cadillac and everything
Then baby, I'm gonna buy you a house in style
Then I'll live there forever, yes lord with my little wife and child

Ray Charles

I haven’t been writing a lot lately for a few reasons… The first one is because of Bonnie and the second is because of the All Star survivor on OLN. I can’t imagine anyone not ever seeing the show before but for those of you that never have I will try to explain and sum it up in a nut shell…. “Survivor’s” are dumped off on an Island… after dividing into “tribes” they compete for “survival tool’s”…. and so on, and so on… The loosing tribe is forced to vote out a tribe member until there is only one player left to win the big prize… One Million Dollars…. Alliances are made and broke all in the course of the game… I like this show a lot.

Now… I would like to know why a person would want to hide their friendship with me. Am I such a horrific person that something like that is needed? Am I offensive? THREE people ( on the blog stream) have decided to hide the fact that they know me…. Let’s see?… What does this say about me as person?… What does this say about you three? You know who you are….. ( don’t worry…. I’m not fixing to blirt it out… ) I just wanted YOU THREE to know you hurt my feelings… and to do that would mean that “I” were a sweet person…

So It’s killing me not to be able to go down and finish my project! I think I might have worked out the problem… I’m going to try it out and I’ll let everyone know… I hope it’s not to late to plant flower seeds down there…..

After reading and research I have come to have a new opinion of the civil war… It seems a whole lot of things I thought were true, because someone TOLD me they were, turned out to be NOT. I still want that cannon ball… Worse now than I did before… Did you know more souls were lost in that war than all of the others put together? ( America’s history )… If I could just find something from then and hold it in my hand…. I think, that might be one of the greatest moments in my life…. I know… Lame huh?…Oh well, different strokes for different folks.