I wrote a long story today and lost it before I was able to post it!...It was about the first time I had ever met my mother in law...It wasn't when my husband introduced us either. I had met her about 10 year's earler..She had been the owner of the bar in Ft. Worth I got married in!...My husband and I hadnt met yet...lol...Thank God!...She had been my mother's Boss and friend..And She had told her son when she found out he was seeing me to stay the hell away from me. That I was trash from the wrong side of the track's.....I'm from the suburbs for God's sake!....today she got in a little jab to me..She reminded me in front of her son about my dead husband...How drunk he use to get at her bar....She said..."Oh...I remember him so well!.....He passed out in the parking lot and someone stole the boot's right off his feet!"...OH MY GOD!....there are just something's that a person would like to leave in the past....My dead husband hadn't been a real looker either...she reminded me of that too...The year's had definitely not been kind to him ...at all!...I could say more but I'm afraid of the haunting I might receive for speaking ill of the dead...Instead I will say that SHE is an ASS for reminding me of it infront of my husband...And he is an ASS for laughing...I said .."yeah yuck it up fucker...see if you get anything from me tonight"..under my breath when she got up to get coffee...

So far my mother-in-law hasn't been much trouble...Her Grand daughter's that she brought with her have been pretty good too...Last time they were here they keyed the side of my car...I don't know what make's a child do stuff like that...I don't remember ever damaging anything like that when I was a kid!...Oh I take that back!!!!One summer I got out all my Dad's old timer ,outside, Christmas lights...I hid behind a bush and threw them at passing car's...I was never caught....I should have got a beating over that...thinking back on it...they had a funny sound when exploiding...they were those big colored bulbs...good throwing size...

I watched "men in Black"...for the umpteenth time...I always laugh when Tommy Lee Jones says there's a bug loose wearing a "brand New Edgar suit"...AND DID YOU NOTICE WHO EDGAR WAS?...My favorite guy on Law and Order CI...I had not noticed that until last night!...I told my husband last year I would marry him...HA HA...(the guy on Law and Order CI)..He wasn't to happy about it...and He didn't get any happyer when I told him he could marry Mary Tyler Moore....He said YEAH!...WHEN SHE WAS LAURA PETRY!...NOT NOW YOU ASS HOLE! She's old as dirt!...(oh well...she wouldn't have wanted him then or now...he he)...

So today while I have little people around that can work a shovel,I think I might get out my medel detector...NO ITS NOT CHILD LABOR!...Kid's love digging in the dirt!...I guess they do...they alway's got it caked under there nose..

SO I haven't heard anything from My daughter...and good thing too...I feel like cursing her out...So maybe that's for the best...A few month's ago I was recording some song's. I got them out yesterday to listen to them and I could hear my Grand daughter in the back ground singing. It broke my heart...She really liked Fatts Domino...lol...She would dance and sing and hold her hand's above her head when Fatt's would sing "Aint that a shame.....My tear's fell like rain".....LOL....Yep...she has good taste in music....awwwwwwwww...I miss her....

So I got to talk to my friend Sylvia yesterday...I really missed her...She's so happy and bright all the time and I think just being in her happyness makes me soak a little of it up...By the time we got done talking I was in a good mood and I had her to thank for it...She has no idea she Helps me in that way...I wish all of you could know her...It's worth knowing a person like her once in your life time...If a woman could ever love another one....I would have to say ...I love her...Her kindness...her humility..And she understand's about eveything!...EVERYTHING!...I'm telling yall she is SPECIAL!

I'm sick of remembering the weekend so I'll spare myself the indignity of writing it down..I will say this....I don't think I'll be going another DAMN place with my husband...Not in this life time anyway!..

My daughter called last night...I could tell she was loaded...She told me that she had taken my Grand daughter to her father's house(my grand daughter's father) and he wouldn't give her back..I sat there hearing all her crap and wanted to just hang up on her. I had told her not to do that!...He doesnt have paper's to be here in this COUNTRY! And he could take my grand daughter to Mexico and I would never see her again!..She told me that he said if I called him and told him she was comming here that he would give her back..I then said to her...."Why did you do that?"...her reply..."cause I was mad at you for saying all that shit to me ,that I didn't want to hear!...And I don't want to hear it now either!...You want me to bring her back?...Then shut the Fuck Up and Listen!"...I then hung up...My husband grabb's the phone and call's the number back she called from and turn's into a therapist!..(can you believe that shit?!)...He start's saying that we love her and we're glad she called and he know's she broke her word to be back on Tuesday but he wanted to give her another chance and he would call her ex-husband for her....(oh my God I feel sick just thinking about his smooth booshee shit!)When He hung up I told him he was a fool...that she would use that child to hurt us...that she would come take her from us when ever she wanted and that ment while she was loaded...He didn't think so...HA HA FUCKING HA!...I know her...like the back of my hand and NOTHING hurt's her!...NOTHING!...She has no heart...I seen this for myself...In her little chest beat's a rock...I asked her once how she felt about her Dad dieing...Did she miss him...She said No..."And I left his ashes in Amarillo Mom...I think under the sink in the bathroom..."...I was shaking my head for a week on that one..She said ...."don't worry...someday I'll go back and sweep up what's left of him"...and then she laughed. I didn't...I just looked at her like she was a monster peeking out from under the bed...For once in my life I had been speachless...And to think this woman (with the mind of a child) has my blood running through her vain's....I can only hope for time to fix this...I have no idea how to help someone grow a heart...

Well now...isnt this intresting....Color!.....

I'm really going to have to learn how to use all this stuff..