Good Afterrnoon! I want to say that I could be mad today but I WILL NOT... ..My daughter took my grand daughter a few day's ago and hasn't returned yet..Even though it's Christmas and she know's I have been buying present's for my Grand daughter for 3 month's...Under my tree look's like I have 10 grandchildren but I only have the one...I know it's not the gift that Christmas is about but it's my first Christmas with her and her mother didn't get her anything but clothes.. ..Children WANT TOY'S!(from the grandparant's anyway)..And I missed last year with her and I guess I wanted to make up for it this year...
HEY! GUESS WHAT?....We had a foggy Christmas eve!! "then one foggy Christmas eve Santa came to say...Rudolph with your nose so bright"....(ha ha)...I couldn't have snow but God Gave me some fog!...Good enough for me!.. Happy Holiday...And if you eat to much Pepcid compleat is great!..

This morning I over slept and woke up to thunder...I didn't know it was going to rain...and I watch the weather LIKE A HAWK!..This concerns me because My hair look's like an afro gone bad when it rain's...and tonight and tomorrow are the day's to look your best..I didn't know a drastic change in climate would curl your hair up like Shirley Temple's
Wow this is a nice day even though it's raining!..I think because Of a little part of last night's event's...Last night I was the designated driver..(It wasn't all that bad..I'm not a drinker really)..So I drove us to a few place's where my husband and his friend drank huge amount's of spirit's. By the time we got home my husband was so drunk he fell into the wall getting out of the truck..(he never does this..He alway's has body control it's just his mouth that get's over run)..I then ran around to help him but he's a lot taller than me so it was really to much for me..He then squashed me up against his lawn mower and that's about the time I was just going to leave him in the garage when his buddy came up behind him and together they stumbled into the house..after we got my husband in bed and I got him undressed I went in my office..I then heard a loud bang. I went to our room and my husband had got up and went to the bathroom and fell into the toilet. He had blood on his eye and on the floor..I looked at it and it's like one of those cut's a boxer get's..Not to bad...dang it bled a lot though..I had no pity for him...I don't know why...I guess because I had watched him like a child while he had been drinking and I TOLD HIM TO STOP!..This morning I told him that I didn't want to be the wife Of the town drunk. I can just imagine the embarrassment that the wife of Otis felt..(the town drunk on Andy Griffith)...He said he would never do that again....(HAHA HA HA HA)..yeah right...I belief that..Notice how you never saw his wife in any of the show's?...She was TO EMBARRASSED!

I'm having a wonderful night!...I hope all of yall are too!..

when I was 11 year's old I woke up to my mother looking down into my face. I wasn't shocked by this because I woke up a lot and she would be sitting in a chair over by the window in my room. But this morning ..something was diffrent...strange..Her breath smelled funny...not like the bourbon I was use too. I remeber the date because it was the day after Christmas and what she said was burned into my mind...I think for the rest Of my life..In a long breath she told me how she could not be here any more..She told me to get up and get my brother and all our toy's and put them in the car. I asked her where Dad was and she said at work...not to worry about him. As we pulled away I looked back at my home that I had been living in for the past 7 year's and thought" STOP! YOUR LEAVING SOMEONE BEHIND!"...but I didn't dare say a word....I think that as Christmas time approaches every year I remember this. The heart ache that my mother couldn't endure for us with my father...I understand why she couldn't now...But I am mad at myself for not having her strength!...and maybe I AM taking this anger out on everything around me...I think I might need to look deeper in side myself for the answer to why I am so angry when I should be Happy...Or maybe I'm not angry at all...maybe I'm annoyed..

MERRY CHRITMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!